Monday, 25 August 2008

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  Reasons

  so as of right now, i am sitting in chemistry 111. my first class in my 3rd year at a community college. yeah, i know i'm taking longer than most, but i don't like to rush if i don't see a point. anyways, recently a friend of mine wrote a blog on how he was getting sick and tired of how people were assuming he was stupid cause he had a GPA of 3.1 in high school. so this past year in college he got a 4.0 and explained in high school he just didn't have a reason to do well and never really put forth any effort. that got me thinking....

  i was the same in high school. and still am. unless i have a definite reason to do something, i'll put hardly any effort into it. even then i graduated in the top 30% of my class. or so i was told by my guidance counsele. ((sp?)) but within the last two months i've come to find a reason to really try hard in almost everything i do. that of course, would be my boyfriend, whom for "internet security" reasons will call ichigo. i gave him that nickname cause he reminds me of ichigo kurosaki from Bleach. ^^

  anyways. ichigo and i were talking recently about moving out of our homes cause our families are beginning to get on our nerves. and we began talking about getting an apartment together and have him move up here to richmond since i will be going to VCU next fall. ((he lives a tad over 2 hours away)) we also started talking about life a few years down the line. he's thinking about going into the coastguard for a few years while i finish up school. and then we'd move down to NC and so on. but...i tend to feel guilty when he pays for stuff even though we each pay for a meal or whatever. i still tend to feel bad about it sometimes cause i feel like i'm mooching off people even though i'm not. back to what i was saying...

  i want to be able to live in a nice house and live comfortably. i can get by with little money, but i'd rather have enough to get by without having to worry too much about being really careful on what i spend money on. that and there are a few big things i would like...xD but that being said, if ichigo and i do end up together, i don't want to depend on him all the time for money. i can't be a stay-at-home mom, i need to be out and about. in order to make a good amount of money, i need to do well in college so i can get a good job. and while i've always known that, it wasn't until i started dating ichigo that i really started thinking hard about it. he has essentially become the reason behind what i'm doing. because i want to make him happy and enjoy life with him. he works so hard now while i complain about being tired after work and not wanting to go to class. so i'm stopping that and starting this semester i'm gonna be bustin' my ass to do well. because i want to work just as hard has he does so he doesn't feel like he's doing everything.

  so yeah. there's my two cents worth. gotta actually focus in class now, even though we're just going through the basics. but yeah.

  ichigo, if you're reading this, thank you for everything, my love. for without you, i wouldn't have a reaso for anything. love you! MUAH! <333 ^^

  ~rika~

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